Uhh something a little more personal

November 2, 2008 - Sunday

holy shiit


And it's people like you that me me sick.


Is there somewhere I can go to get away.
Where there's truth and people mean just what they say?




September 27, 2008 - Saturday

Raw and true


I'm going to San Francisco tomorrow, basically to do one of the most scary things I have done in my life EVER! I'm meeting my dad's side of the family for the first time in my whole 21 years of life. Yes for the first time. I'm pretty much stressing out inside (you would never know) to the max. I'm very excited but soooo nervous. Here is a short version of my story. I have the best family ever, we have are problems just like everyone else, but I would do anything for them. I love them with everything I have. Growing up I never knew my dad. I accepted that, and always looked at life in a positive way. There are a lot of happy, succesful people who grow up in single parent homes. Around my 17th birthday my grandparent's on my dad's side found out about me. (What a shock to them!) I didn't know what to think about this at the time. I was unsure if I wanted them in my life, mostly for the fear that they would just go away or maybe not like me. So, Finally I grew some balls and just did it and met them. They flew here we had lunch, a slight awkward one but what else would you expect? Since then we have grown a relationship, there is still progress to be made but we have come far from where we were. Then almost a year ago I met my dad for the first time. This was a huge step and also a big stresser. We have only met a couple more times after that, of course we talk, it's hard to get used to and i'll admit it scares me to death a lot of the time. I'm trying my best to be brave. Just like my grandparent's this relationship is new also. Finally Christmas of 07' my dad told his entire family that he had a daughter. SO here I am today about to meet my dad's side of the family. I'm very excited, nervous, anxious for this coming trip. I know it is just the beginning and getting to know people takes time, but I believe that obstacles can be overcome. That's my story. Kinda crazy but it is me raw and true.



September 1, 2008 - Monday

I just found this


I posted this on Poetry.com some time ago...
My Eyes
I hide so many things
You can see the truth in my stare
Yet my eyes show it
I cried because of all the pain
I wiped my tears
Yet my eyes show it


-Jenni Lee Anderton





August 29, 2008 - Friday

but then, one day, you realize ... you’re not just a survivor. you’re a warrior .


like this.

life is going to push you around . it's going to beat you up . and it's going to scare you . but then, one day, you realize ... you're not just a survivor. you're a warrior.