Uhh something a little more personal

November 2, 2008 - Sunday

holy shiit


And it's people like you that me me sick.


Is there somewhere I can go to get away.
Where there's truth and people mean just what they say?




September 27, 2008 - Saturday

Raw and true


I'm going to San Francisco tomorrow, basically to do one of the most scary things I have done in my life EVER! I'm meeting my dad's side of the family for the first time in my whole 21 years of life. Yes for the first time. I'm pretty much stressing out inside (you would never know) to the max. I'm very excited but soooo nervous. Here is a short version of my story. I have the best family ever, we have are problems just like everyone else, but I would do anything for them. I love them with everything I have. Growing up I never knew my dad. I accepted that, and always looked at life in a positive way. There are a lot of happy, succesful people who grow up in single parent homes. Around my 17th birthday my grandparent's on my dad's side found out about me. (What a shock to them!) I didn't know what to think about this at the time. I was unsure if I wanted them in my life, mostly for the fear that they would just go away or maybe not like me. So, Finally I grew some balls and just did it and met them. They flew here we had lunch, a slight awkward one but what else would you expect? Since then we have grown a relationship, there is still progress to be made but we have come far from where we were. Then almost a year ago I met my dad for the first time. This was a huge step and also a big stresser. We have only met a couple more times after that, of course we talk, it's hard to get used to and i'll admit it scares me to death a lot of the time. I'm trying my best to be brave. Just like my grandparent's this relationship is new also. Finally Christmas of 07' my dad told his entire family that he had a daughter. SO here I am today about to meet my dad's side of the family. I'm very excited, nervous, anxious for this coming trip. I know it is just the beginning and getting to know people takes time, but I believe that obstacles can be overcome. That's my story. Kinda crazy but it is me raw and true.



September 1, 2008 - Monday

I just found this


I posted this on Poetry.com some time ago...
My Eyes
I hide so many things
You can see the truth in my stare
Yet my eyes show it
I cried because of all the pain
I wiped my tears
Yet my eyes show it


-Jenni Lee Anderton





August 29, 2008 - Friday

but then, one day, you realize ... you’re not just a survivor. you’re a warrior .


like this.

life is going to push you around . it's going to beat you up . and it's going to scare you . but then, one day, you realize ... you're not just a survivor. you're a warrior.

Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and
see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead. --Louisa May Alcott

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History has demonstrated that the most
notable winners usually encountered heart
breaking obstacles before they triumphed.
They won because they refused to
become discouraged by their defeats.

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Without even realizing it,
you taught me a lot of things.
Not only about life, but how
it's okay to feel something
extraordinary about someone.

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Damaged people are dangerous.
They know they can survive.
+ + Josephine Hart

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"It may have been in bits and pieces, but i gave you the best of me."
-Jim Morrison

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All the best love stories have one thing in common.
You have to go against the odds to get there.

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People always leave.
Sometimes they come back.
++ One Tree Hill

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There's something so infinite about sitting in a beautiful place, listening to music, and allowing yourself to freely think and fantasize. It's wonderful, because with an imagination, you are not confined to remembering good times; you can create them in your head. I know that sounds a little crazy, but when you're some place and your mind wanders into beautiful scenarios... you're not there, you're in your own world. And that, my friends, is infinite.

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There's always going to be somebody
who'll try to take your dignity and self-esteem.
Just never let them take your voice."

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The world is as good as you are.
You've got to learn to like yourself first.
I'm a little screwed up, but I'm beautiful.
+ + Steve McQueen

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"I'll respect you when you respect me what can you expect."++++- Mury





Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth...the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is...everything.

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One Tree is the way the way to be

"You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back.
Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.
The rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase. The choices you make. and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now."

--Bethany Galeotti as Haley James Scott

"So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination."

--Barry Corbin as Whitey Durham

"Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?"

--Hilarie Burton as Peyton Sawyer

"Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for."

--James Lafferty as Nathan Scott

"Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are."

"They give their hearts to each other unconditionally ...that's what true love really is. It's not this fairy tale life that never knows pain, but it's two souls facing it together and diminishing it with unconditional love."

"You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? You know, it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other people's lives we've been in? Were we a part of someone's life when thier dreams came true? Or were we there when theur dream died? Did we keep trying to get in as if we were destined to be there? Or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think. You could be a big part of someone else's life and not even know it."

T.H. White said, "Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return."

"If you could go back and change just one thing about your life, would you? and if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? or break the heart of another? would you choose an entirely different path? or would you change just one thing? just one moment. one moment that you always wanted back.."

--Chad Michael Murray as Lucas Scott

"I love you...and I probably always will. But we go days without having a meaningful conversation. And I used to miss you so much when that happened...but it never seemed like you missed me...and because of it, I stopped missing you”

--Sophia Bush as Brooke Davis

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